london ritz hotel

hi. producers? where have all the hotels gone? we’re all sitting on top of each other in here. and tete really needs a shower. she smells like billy. sorry but its true. thats what happens when you make friends with wasters like that. i know she’s been through it recently but there are limits.

if dieter says his own name just one more time i’m going to make very bad things happen to him. im getting so sick of everyone here.

it just keeps raining. Now David ####breath has dumped on claire, posting a the sun-style grainy phonecamera of her entering her hotel room with some bloke as well as photos. first thing i thought was go on claire you minx!! I didnt think you had it in you girl. rock’n’roll! seriously though. her bloke has totally bailed on her after hampton sent it to him and her folks. this is way to harsh. everyone is getting some. hamnpton – seriously, you’d better seriously stop before we find you and rip your balls from your ####. i know people who can do that stuff and track you down no probs, so…be warned.

is the reading and leeds coverage on the bbc website:

Reading and Leeds

so many good bands. can’t wait to play there. it’s the only festival im upset to have missed this summer.

i wish i had someone to talk to on the bus. everyone here just seems crazy. if i could’ve got some of the guys from notting hill on with me i’d be so much happier. they actually seemed to understand where i was coming from. at the moment i’m living with what feels like 5 total strangers. i don’t want to hang out with any of them. the thing that’s ####### me off most is the fact that they’re always twisting my words to suit themselves. it’s like they want me to be someone else. they’ve got these ideas about me that are just totally wrong. just because i’m up for a laugh doesnt mean they know who i am. things are a bit ######-up right now. my head is well done in with all this dark #### going on around us.

been listening to silent alarm a lot since notting hill. ####### love that album. now bloc party just seem to be trying to be something there not though. they’re trying too hard maybe. i’ve got a lot of love for kele still though. his lyrics are just so brave. that’s something that’ll never change about the band – he’s always gonna sing about personal stuff. i really respect that. “i still remember” hit me so hard when i first heard it. its just so heartfelt, whatever it’s about. there was loads of speculation about it when it first came out. people saying that kele was gay. i dont know. i mean it does make a difference. some people might not like the band as much after that. or just see them differently. i dont give a ####. but other people probably do.

#### billy!! i just knew he was scum from the moment i saw him. we shouldve kicked him off the bus ages ago like i wanted to.
basically we just got back from the carnival and tete’s been really ill. she ####### OD’d man. Like proper Jimi Hendrixed. she was passed out when dieter came back and was sick everywhere. she’s been taking way too much of something for the last few weeks. so stupid. but it was billy that got her back on it! he was being paid to do it apparently. thats what he told tete. i dont know why we would trust anything he says though. he’s just a junkie. he’s obviously been lying the whole time. i can’t believe tete didn’t listen to us about him. she almost died today because of him. he could of murdered her. he better not ever show his face around here again or i’ll ####### OD him.

i’ve been convincing everyone at the carnival that i’m in bloc party! they love it. ha! not sure dieter’s doing so well though – i’m telling everyone that he’s a roadie. no one’s questioned that either (ha ha). hes obviously got the look. bad news for him. i bet everyone else is doing pretty badly too. who the #### is claire gonna pretend to be? the virgin mary? people might go for that actually. ha. it’s weird the way that whenever a challenge comes up that has anything to do with being famous i just seem to be all over it compared to the others. hmmmmm. i think its called charisma. god it’s been a really good day. except for emma. i wonder what famous psycho she’s “pretending” to be?

there are so many cool people here. i’ve been hanging out with this amazing group of people that i met for most of the day. getting away from the others for once. it was amazing. this bloke called Markey was probably the coolest, nicest bloke I’ve ever hung with. a total dude and the coolest hair! i just felt so different when i was with them. i really felt like a totally new person without the others all watching me. actually it really reminded me of croatia. just that sense of freedom to be who you want to be. such a rare feeling.

I’m getting fed up with all this ####. who killed summer? the rest of these busmates, thats who. no surprise really. i thought this might be one reality show that didnt descend into arguments and bickering. thought we’d all just mash it up and have a major laugh. but no dice. the usual crap has ###### up the atmosphere. its been a laugh at times, dont get me wrong. but i’m well ready to get back to my mates and my life and – most important – my band. i am so missing playing and singing. i texted my mate rust today and told him how i need to play. he said that because of the show iBeatnik is WELLLLL popular and they are putting together a tour. nice one! every cloud and all that. So you ibeatnik fans – get your tickets now – while you can.